Ready to Commence Battle


I have purposely tried not to let my cancer updates take over my blog which is mainly about gardening, gardens and my love of photography.  However, I am also using my blog as an outlet for my thoughts on the battle I have ahead of me.  Yes, to an extent this is self-indulgent but that is what a personal blog is all about really, isn’t it?  There may be those who don’t want to read about my battle against cancer but I hope there are readers who will find this of some help in one way or another, even it is just to bring awareness of bowel cancer.

In a post on 13 April, I added at the bottom an update about the CT guided biopsy on 3 April.   I was so hoping that the Multi Disciplinary Team (MDT) were going to meet on the 11th with an appointment to see the colorectal surgeon on the 18th.  By the beginning of last week I had not heard anything so I called the colorectal nurse who said that the MDT meeting had not discussed my case because the histology report was not through in time.   Rather than bore you with the many phone calls between her, me and the consultants secretary, I was called on the 17th to say that the report was through and I had an appointment at 11:15 on the 18th.

Any one who knows me will know that I never do things by half or that life is ever simple for me – I am just one of those people!  I was told that the report had taken such a long time because there were a lot of various tests to be done on the biopsy.  They found that I have what is a called a GIST – a gastro intestinal stromal tumour, which is not connected to the bowel cancer, which is an adenocarcinoma (a glandular tissue cancer).  The cells are very slow growing and not ringing any alarm bells at the moment but it does need to be removed.  GISTs are quite rare and when malignant are sarcomas (soft tissue cancers).  I am just really, really unlucky to have two types of tumours.

They need to know what it is attached to, as it moves slightly it is probably on a stem, but surrounding good tissue has to be removed at the same time so it is important to locate what organ it is attached to.  Whilst initially it was thought that both operations could be done together, the Gastro Intestinal Surgeon has said to go ahead with the bowel resection and he will come into the operating theatre and take a look.  There is no plan at the moment to remove it at the same time now.  This will have to be done under a separate operation which, if chemo follows (and I don’t believe this is an option), it will have to be done within 6 weeks of the first operation.

I have an operation date of 7 May and am now signed off work.  My GP feels I need to rest and get some sleep, which is evading me at the moment, so that I am fit to face what is ahead of me.   Knowing that I won’t be back at work for many months is strange and it was a sad day to say good bye to my colleagues.   I intend to enjoy the good weather, get the garden straight and catch up with friends.  At least we are going into the Summer months which should help, it could be worse and have the dark, cold Winter months looming.

So there we are, the battle date is in sight and it will only be when I come around I will know what was taken out, and if I have an ileostomy or colonostomy, whether it’s temporary or permanent, or have been lucky enough to have neither.  I will then have to wait another 7 to 10 days to find out what stage my cancer is at and any chemo treatment they have planned for me.  If all goes well, and they managed it as a laparoscopy (keyhole surgery), I should be out within 3/4 days and I will be going to stay with my youngest daughter in Southsea for a week to recuperate and then back home.

Meanwhile, I have two weeks ahead to publish cheerful garden posts.

Oh, one more thing – I found this little ditty which whilst it will make you smile has a very serious message behind it.  Bowel cancer doesn’t just affect those over 60, as I have discovered there are many younger people who are affected.  So, as the song says “Test your Poo”.


  1. we have both recently done the poo test … part of a program by our government … worthwhile i am sure .. do enjoy your two weeks of gardening but try to get some sleep ronnie … you might like to try a yoga nidra relaxation, it works extremely well… just google it or try this one … sending positive thoughts, and love from the other side of the world 🙂


  2. Hi Ronnie
    Hoping everything goes well on 7th – will contact you. So glad the weather has improved so you can potter in the garden.
    Michaela x


  3. I am laughing at the Poo song!
    As a matter of fact, my doctor just gave me one of those little test kits. I’ll be singing the song!
    I’ve marked your surgery date on my calendar for special prayers for you.
    Lea’s Menagerie
    Mississippi, USA


  4. I am amazed that you have retained all the information you are having thrown at you and all those medical terms. I know people who are going through similar things and are completely befuddled.

    I think I would be at a loss if I had to give up work in the same circumstances, work must have been a diversion. Maybe you could try to treat it as a 2 week holiday. Bit of garden visiting, what about a spa treatment or something to make you feel fab.


    • Hi Helen. It’s been very important to me to know exactly what is going on inside of me that way I am keeping some control over my own body. Yes, I am treating the next two weeks as a holiday with lots of lovely things planned. Work has been my saving grace over the last few months but when I walked away from it I suddenly felt a cloak lifting…one less stress, no more train journeys and one less thing to be responsible for. Now it’s me time.


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